Sunday 21 August 2016

Good or Bad, am I in the way?

In the past few weeks things have been very busy with adjusting back to Thailand after our short time in Mongolia, having a team from Canada, meeting with people as they seek the future/need guidance/are preparing for marriage/want someone to listen & pray with them. As well as preparation of school staring, then school starting, Teresa & I planning our family responsibilities for the coming months, & me preparing for the DTS week long class I will be teaching. I wanted to plan, be organized, be efficient & effective. But in all of these good things found myself unintentionally being more & more stressed inside. My weekly exercise that usually keeps me going wasn't working. It wasn't working because I realized that all these good things together were taking the place of my rest & quality time with my Father, my God, my Jesus.

My daily reading today really helped remind me that my relationship was being blocked by good things, but still blocked. 

"I indeed baptize you with water…but He…will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. Matthew 3:11

Have I ever come to the point in my life where I can say, “I indeed…but He…”? Until that moment comes, I will never know what the baptism of the Holy Spirit means. I indeed am at the end, and I cannot do anything more— but He begins right there— He does the things that no one else can ever do. Am I prepared for His coming? Jesus cannot come and do His work in me as long as there is anything blocking the way, whether it is something good or bad. When He comes to me, am I prepared for Him to drag every wrong thing I have ever done into the light? That is exactly where He comes. Wherever I know I am unclean is where He will put His feet and stand, and wherever I think I am clean is where He will remove His feet and walk away..."

Oswald Chambers